The thoughts that have arisen

Darling friends and family,

Okay my friends. I know. Too long of gaps between posts.  I will admit I get overwhelmed. But I am just frustrated right now, and have been the past few days BECAUSE I cannot figure out for the life of me how to copy and paste onto this dang thing. It's so annoying. Why is something so easy, so hard with this? Bloggers! Help! :)

But on another note, I will fill you in a little. Went to a festival thingy with Kiley, it was cute and fun, and we ate cheese dip at another restaurant. I think this is my....um...fifth place to try cheese dip. My favourites thus far are at Canon Grill, and this Mexican place I've been twice with Kiley and KK. So.... Canada, do you have cheese dip? Will you let me down with my new love? Separate me from this amazing creation from God!!?!? Oh, other food I love!!! Besides the most amazing smoothie I had here, refer back to old post, I have tasted the most incredible soft ice cream that I think man-kind has come up with. Apparently, it is made from custard? Not regular ice cream, not frozen yogurt, but a mixture of everything wonderful in this world, in my mouth. And guess what the name of the place is. Well you'll never guess so I'll just tell you: Shakey's. Apparently it's not really called Shakey's anymore because of some random Texan who got mad of their store name being stolen so it's Shake's. But I like to think I'm a part of the Kirksey's experiences from years ago, and still call it Shakey's with them. Or boxing...because we all know how much shaking and boxing looks a like. Ahem...

Other news, I am in love with  this Artist named Carey Pierce.  But I can't find his music anywhere on the Internet, which leads me to believe he is not well known. It's a shame. He sings this song, which isn't really his, but it's called When the Stars go Blue. Here is a link from a different artist singing it. I prefer Carey, but oh well. This is the best artist I can find to sing it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qdp6MBpypKQ . Listen and fall in Love. And see if I could copy and paste, I wouldn't have had to freaking write that out :) ha. So, I've listened to Carey sing this song, probably over thirty times since last Monday. I know, obsessed. I'll get sick of it soon I think. But for now, I'm singing away to it :)

Hmm what else. I can't believe I am home NEXT Saturday. It is just insane. Seriously. I have mixed feelings about it. Like, I'm not sad to leave necessarily, but not like aching to go home either? I'm just used to my life here I suppose. So it will be weird going back to my real life. I'm not sure I'm ready to face it all again...but I sure miss my family and church a lot. Two things who would have thought I'd miss the most, HA!

But, I will say I am learning A LOT. It's crazy. When I talk to people on the phone from home every once in a while, I know they don't think I've changed. And I doubt that people here even think I'm any different. But I feel different. I am facing situations different. Just with different situations that have arisen, and I just take a different way to deal with them. I see how people act or react to things, and see how I do and don't want to be. And I'm working towards that. I am figuring out what I really like, what I want to do with my life, goals I want to set for myself, things I know I need to do, even if I've been putting it off in fear or just being lazy. I've realized things that are important to me that I didn't before. I've come up with things I want to do and learn when I am home and able with my resources there and when I have money and opportunity. 

I'm excited. And even the fact that I am excited, makes me more excited. I realized that I haven't had a bad headache really since I've been here. I think I have maybe twice, and both time I thought it was probably from lack of drinking. I just feel better in general. It's.... awesome. 

I guess I am excited to come home, and to see what is in store for me. 

There, hope you all didn't suffer too much with me and this awfully dramatic post.

Love you all!

Goodnight,

xoxoxo

Rubie