Oh my goodness, I have had a seriously terrible day. Rides bailed/didn't work out, I had to cab to school, and then wait for over two and a half hours for another to get me afterwards. I would have walked but I was relying on the rides so I didn't dress properly for the "feels like -37 weather". I did a terrible job on a written assignment I handed in. My classes were just stupid today. I Read something that hurt me, sent an impulsive message that I regretted, got a response, felt even worse. I freaking am hating men right now. Every single one of my exes are the same. Why do I do that to myself? I seem to attract men who think they want me but don't actually because something else in their life is more important so in the end I am alone. Mom says it means they aren't the right one, but it makes me just feel worthless. I am sticking to my guns and not getting involved for a year. I've made that statement but it is happening. I honestly don't have anymore energy to give to a boy. They suck. The slogan Boys suck, throw rocks at them. Yep, basically my life motto right now.
I'm such a mess between wanting to punch someone and continue to sob my heart out.
And to make it even better, not one of my 'friends' was at school, or at least in sight today. So I went through the day feeling down and alone.
I cannot wait for this day to be over. Please end. Please.
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