I'm trying so hard

Not a good start to my Friday. Not good at all. I'm so frustrated. Overwhelmed. Tired.

I don't know what to do. I've been working everyday for 2 weeks, been doing homework, trying to stay on top of it all. I'm involved in church, so that's every Sunday for half the day, every Thursday night, and if we have any special events, like this Friday, next Saturday. I'm doing hip hop on Monday nights now. I've been volunteering for a random Saturday once a month to go clean my church. It has to get done somehow right? I try to still see my friends, lord knows I want to see Ava, I haven't even seen her since Stephanie's surprise party, on the 31st of January.

I just checked my school email, and my psych prof finally posted my presentation grade. With a huge email attached. She marked us, then the two girls from my group marked me and I marked me. Make sense? So four marks, and she just took the average of those marks. So, of course, I look and the one girl who was difficult the entire time (oh and was the one who said, let's make sure we all give each other 5/5 for everything so we get a good mark, ah, yeah!), and I got a 4.25/5, 4.75/5 and then 5/5 out of the third item. So Kaylee gave me 5/5 on everything, so did I, but Morgan didn't. So that's nice. So, instead of an 82% I got a 78%. Great, I went down an entire letter grade. 30% of my mark.

Seriously, I am feeling really defeated. I have three exams coming up next week, 1 major paper, and a little paper. I need to do all the work I've been given and get in as many hours in this week as possible or else I won't be able to pay rent next month.

Basically, I don't even feel like I'm floating anymore. I'm just sinking. And stupid girl's grading me just basically pushed my head under the water.

I know, wah, cry baby, whatever. Stay calm and carry on, right Kyle?

xo
Ruth