Sorry for my absence! The honest truth as to why I haven't been writing, is that I've been feeling too negative lately. For a couple weeks there it just felt like everything was going wrong, and I was barely holding on. I was getting so angry with everything, and didn't see a light at the end of the tunnel.
Of course things have gotten better though, which is life right? Just when you think this is how crappy things are going to be forever, something gets better. My income tax came in freakishly fast and I was able to make my $200.00 deposit for my 3rd year courses. Despite failing a third exam, I brought my History mark up 27% from my last exam. My prof actually wrote me a note thanking me for my effort, it was kind of sweet. So I will be going into my final exam with a better grade, and I have a better idea of what he expects from his exams.
I've gotten more work from NAIT, not a huge amount, but enough to keep me busy for last week and this week, which is progress. I will hear back by tomorrow I believe, if I get the summer job at NAIT, so I'm really hoping that works out. It would be fantastic! Also, Amanda's mom offered to pay for my plane ticket to Ontario for the wedding with her airmiles, I just need to cover the extra tax, but that was a huge relief. My income tax money has been slowly paying for the things I was behind in and will need to pay for the future, aka my spring course, visa bill, bills in general, GROCERIES! I spent $105.00 on groceries last night! Isn't that ridiculous? But I was out of things like contact solution and cheese etc, things that add up so quickly. It's just nice having food in my fridge.
Anyways, I set up my schedule for next year, and let me tell you right now, I have never felt more relieved and just solid in my decision before. I decided to prolong my third year an extra semester. I was stressing about it before, but now that I've officially made the decision, I know it was the right thing to do. I've been saying I'm trying to do too many things at once, and do them all well, and yet it's resulting in me doing some things average and some things terribly. I can't live like that. So, all of next year I will only have classes on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I will hopefully be able to find a job I can work on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Also, I am taking only 4 courses in the Fall and 3 in the Winter.
I am happy for this and hopefully this next year will be a lot less stress!! Can you believe it, I'm going into my third year of university? I'm so old :)
Love you all,
xoxo
Ruthie
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