It doesn't fit!

Ello ladies and gents,

How are you doing? It has been QUITE the week I tell you... I slept a grand total of 9 hours between Monday-Wednesday trying to get a paper done that was due on Tuesday. So definitely got -5% off that paper. I will get it back tomorrow, we'll see how I did. Apparently he is a hard marker...

On Tuesday I found out that my ex was gay, which was a huge shock to me. It's been interesting adjusting to that. We were able to get together on Saturday evening and fell in an old routine of 'us' near the end of the night. It felt really normal, but with the whole news I had received it felt very different still. I had been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster. Seeing him stirred up old feelings I had had and made me realize I was using my excuse of not seeing him as a sense of closure. But since things have actually been good. The more I think about it, the more I realize how we had connected on a deep level, and I don't think it was by chance. I truly believe that we are going to be able to be friends, which is what we both want. It may sound strange to some of you, but unless anyone has actually been in this situation I don't know if any one's advice or input really matters. I am staying true to my feelings and gut and I am going to continue to follow them. If I feel like it is too much, then I will continue following what I believe is best and stop communication again. I think that ultimately I have to weigh the pros and cons of relationships in general, and if it feels like more of a con than pro, I need to make decisions based on that. But I'm feeling really positive about it all and a lot happier, so that is good!

On even more recent news, today I had the honour of hanging out with my dear friend Andrea. Even though I am not the maid of honour, Andrea and I got the ball rolling on her bridal shower. She had found adorable invitations online, and we just had to get them:

Due to the fact that the manufacturers are based in the states, we had to order them today so that we were able to get them by the 15th of April, and then I can get them mailed out. It was quite the ordeal getting a go for the date of April 30th from her mother, her fiance's mother, her maid of honour, my father to use the church facilities, and Mandy (she has something planned for my birthday that evening! YAY ME!). But we got it sorted out, and now the ball is rolling. Her wedding is May 21st, and her maid of honour has been a little MIA lately, so we needed to take charge! Also, we went and picked up my dress! I'm pleased to announce that my -15 pounds has really had an affect on the dress fitting. I knew I would need alterations, I just didn't realize it would be so much! I was pretty happy!

Side note: I bought 2 new pairs of sunglasses and a wallet which I was in need of both. The wallet more so than the sunglasses, since mine was ripped in several places and could no longer hold anything in it! Anyways, it's been a really good day, and I'm feeling really optimistic about stuff in general despite the papers and exams are that heading my way!!

Love you guys,

Ruthie