Summer lovin'

Hello my lovely readers,

Hopefully you are all enjoying the summer sunshine and lack of rain (for you Edmontonians who have suffered through all the downpours!). I realize I haven't really been keeping up with my blog in my usual (updating my life!) way, so I thought I'd take a few moments to do so.

What is new with me? Well, I have moved back in with my parents! To some they would say that is a huge mistake or a step backwards, but it definitely was the right decision for me. It really came down to ruining a friendship of many years for good, and continuing to live a life of complete stress. I just didn't know how to deal with the stress of my living situation and school and working. I've learned that about myself, that I deal with stress very poorly. I don't see the whole situation of moving out as running away either. It really was a positive change.

I haven't worked a day this entire summer, besides the two house cleaning job that I've kept as a small source of income. I realized today how much I've enjoyed the freedom. Last summer was an emotional roller coaster for me with working out in the oil rig camp, and this summer I've been home and been able to be a part of a dear friends wedding, and be around my niece quite a bit. It's just been very relaxing. I have been looking for a job, but only applied to one. I did have an interview but never heard back from there (they are crazy and don't know what they are missing out on, trust me ;) )! I keep looking for an admin job that I can do on Tuesday and Thursdays throughtout my school year but to no avail. The right job will appear I know it will. I may not have much money to my name, but I think I really needed this summer.

As for school, it is quickly approaching. I think I'm realizing more and more I am not in the right program. I have an idea of what I would like to be doing, but I am determined to finish my 3 year degree first before I make any major decisions. I am still young, and more school won't kill me. I don't think dropping out in the middle of my degree would be the right move at all, and I could never justify the waste of all that money that I now have building up in loans.

Anyways, I am happy. My relationship with my old roommate is slowly getting better, me and my sister are actually getting along at home (it was a concern for me!), I'm enjoying my niece growing up, and I'm enjoying being on the event planning committee at church, and planning my friends baby shower on my own. Things are good. I feel content. Thanks for all sticking by me through this crazy journey I am on. I love you all dearly.

xoxox
Much love,
Ruth Natasha